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d baying which removed me effectually some yards’ distance; but I would not be driven quite away till I saw the event。 This was finally fortunate; the horse was re…established; and the dog was silenced with a “Down; Pilot!” The traveller now; stooping; felt his foot and leg; as if trying whether they were sound; apparently something ailed them; for he halted to the stile whence I had just risen; and sat down。
I was in the mood for being useful; or at least officious; I think; for I now drew near him again。
“If you are hurt; and want help; sir; I can fetch some one either from Thornfield Hall or from Hay。”
“Thank you: I shall do: I have no broken bones;—only a sprain;” and again he stood up and tried his foot; but the result extorted an involuntary “Ugh!”
Something of daylight still lingered; and the moon was waxing bright: I could see him plainly。 His figure was enveloped in a riding cloak; fur collared and steel clasped; its details were not apparent; but I traced the general points of middle height and considerable breadth of chest。 He had a dark face; with stern features and a heavy brow; his eyes and gathered eyebrows looked ireful and thwarted just now; he was past youth; but had not reached middle…age; perhaps he might be thirty…five。 I felt no fear of him; and but little shyness。 Had he been a handsome; heroic…looking young gentleman; I should not have dared to stand thus questioning him against his will; and offering my services unasked。 I had hardly ever seen a handsome youth; never in my life spoken to one。 I had a theoretical reverence and homage for beauty; elegance; gallantry; fascination; but had I met those qualities incarnate in masculine shape; I should have known instinctively that they neither had nor could have sympathy with anything in me; and should have shunned them as one would fire; lightning; or anything else that is bright but antipathetic。
If even this stranger had smiled and been good…humoured to me when I addressed him; if he had put off my offer of assistance gaily and with thanks; I should have gone on my way and not felt any vocation to renew inquiries: but the frown; the roughness of the traveller; set me at my ease: I retained my station when he waved to me to go; and announced—
“I cannot think of leaving you; sir; at so late an hour; in this solitary lane; till I see you are fit to mount your horse。”
He looked at me when I said this; he had hardly turned his eyes in my direction before。
“I should think you ought to be at home yourself;” said he; “if you have a home in this neighbourhood: where do you e from?”
“From just below; and I am not at all afraid of being out late when it is moonlight: I will run over to Hay for you with pleasure; if you wish it: indeed; I am going there to post a letter。”
“You live just below—do you mean at that house with the battlements?” pointing to Thornfield Hall; on which the moon cast a hoary gleam; bringing it out distinct and pale from the woods that; by contrast with the western sky; now seemed one mass of shadow。
“Yes; sir。”
“Whose house is it?”
“Mr。 Rochester’s。”
“Do you know Mr。 Rochester?”
“No; I have never seen him。”
“He is not resident; then?”
“No。”
“Can you tell me where he is?”
“I cannot。”
“You are not a servant at the hall; of course。 You are—” He stopped; ran his eye over my dress; ple: a black merino cloak; a black beaver bon; neither of them half fine enough for a lady’s…maid。 He seemed puzzled to decide what I was; I helped him。
“I am the governess。”
“Ah; the governess!” he repeated; “deuce take me; if I had not forgotten! The governess!” and again my raiment underwent scrutiny。 In two minutes he rose from the stile: his face expressed pain when he tried to move。
“I cannot mission you to fetch help;” he said; “but you may help me a little yourself; if you will be so kind。”
“Yes; sir。”
“You have not an umbrella that I can use as a stick?”
“No。”
“Try to get hold of my horse’s bridle and lead him to me: you are not afraid?”
I should have been afraid to touch a horse when alone; but when told to do it; I was disposed to obey。 I put down my muff on the stile; and went up to the tall steed; I endeavoured to catch the bridle; but it was a spirited thing; and would not let me e near its head; I made effort on effort; though in vain: meantime; I was mortally afraid of its trampling fore…feet。 The traveller waited and watched for some time; and at last he laughed。
“I see;” he said; “the mountain will never be brought to Mahomet; so all you can do is to aid Mahomet to go to the mountain; I must beg of you to e here。”
I came。 “Excuse me;” he continued: “necessity pels me to make you useful。” He laid a heavy hand on my shoulder; and leaning on me with some stress; limped to his horse。 Having once caught the bridle; he mastered it directly and sprang to his saddle; grimacing grimly as he made the effort; for it wrenched his sprain。
“Now;” said he; releasing his under lip from a hard bite; “just hand me my whip; it lies there under the hedge。”
I sought it and found it。
“Thank you; now make haste with the letter to Hay; and return as fast as you can。”
A touch of a spurred heel made his horse first start and rear; and then bound away; the dog rushed in his traces; all three vanished;
“Like heath that; in the wilderness;
The wild wind whirls away。”
I took up my muff and walked on。 The incident had occurred and was gone for me: it was an incident of no moment; no romance; no interest in a sense; yet it marked with change one single hour of a monotonous life。 My help had been needed and claimed; I had given it: I was pleased to have done something; trivial; transitory though the deed was; it was yet an active thing; and I was weary of an existence all passive。 The new face; too; was like a new picture introduced to the gallery of memory; and it was dissimilar to all the others hanging there: firstly; because it was masculine; and; secondly; because it was dark; strong; and stern。 I had it still before me when I entered Hay; and slipped the letter into the post… office; I saw it as I walked fast down…hill all the way home。 When I came to the stile; I stopped a minute; looked round and listened; with an idea that a horse’s hoofs might ring on the causeway again; and that a rider in a cloak; and a Gytrash…like Newfoundland dog; might be again apparent: I saw only the hedge and a pollard willow before me; rising up still and straight to meet the moonbeams; I heard only the faintest waft of wind roaming fitful among the trees round Thornfield; a mile distant; and when I glanced down in the direction of the murmur; my eye; traversing the hall…front; caught a light kindling in a window: it reminded me that I was late; and I hurried on。
I did not like re…entering Thornfield。 To pass its threshold was to return to stagnation; to cross the silent hall; to ascend the darksome staircase; to seek my own lonely little room; and then to meet tranquil Mrs。 Fairfax; and spend the long winter evening with her; and her only; was to quell wholly the faint excitement wakened by my walk;—to slip again over my faculties the viewless fetters of an uniform and too still existence; of an existence whose very privileges of security and ease I was being incapable of appreciating。 What good it would have done me at that time to have been tossed in the storms of an uncertain struggling life; and to have been taught by rough and bitter experience to long for the calm amidst which I now repined! Yes; just as much good as it would do a man tired of sitting still in a “too easy chair” to take a long walk: and just as natural was the wish to stir; under my circumstances; as it would be under his。
I lingered at the gates; I lingered on the lawn; I paced backwards and forwards on the pavement; the shutters of the glass door were closed; I could not see into the interior; and both my eyes and spirit seemed drawn from the gloomy house—from the grey…hollow filled with rayless cells; as it appeared to me—to that sky expanded before me;—a blue sea absolved from taint of cloud; the moon ascending it in solemn march; her orb seeming to look up as she left the hill…tops; from behind which she