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“Mr。 Rivers；” I said； turning to him； and looking at him； as he looked at me； openly and without diffidence； “you and your sisters have done me a great service—the greatest man can do his fellow… being； you have rescued me； by your noble hospitality； from death。 This benefit conferred gives you an unlimited claim on my gratitude； and a claim； to a certain extent； on my confidence。 I will tell you as much of the history of the wanderer you have harboured； as I can tell without promising my own peace of mind—my own security； moral and physical； and that of others。
“I am an orphan； the daughter of a clergyman。 My parents died before I could know them。 I was brought up a dependant； educated in a charitable institution。 I will even tell you the name of the establishment； where I passed six years as a pupil； and two as a teacher—Lowood Orphan Asylum；—shire： you will have heard of it； Mr。 Rivers？—the Rev。 Robert Brocklehurst is the treasurer。”
“I have heard of Mr。 Brocklehurst； and I have seen the school。”
“I left Lowood nearly a year since to bee a private governess。 I obtained a good situation； and was happy。 This place I was obliged to leave four days before I came here。 The reason of my departure I cannot and ought not to explain： it would be useless； dangerous； and would sound incredible。 No blame attached to me： I am as free from culpability as any one of you three。 Miserable I am； and must be for a time； for the catastrophe which drove me from a house I had found a paradise was of a strange and direful nature。 I observed but two points in planning my departure—speed； secrecy： to secure these； I had to leave behind me everything I possessed except a small parcel； which； in my hurry and trouble of mind； I forgot to take out of the coach that brought me to Whitcross。 To this neighbourhood； then； I came； quite destitute。 I slept two nights in the open air； and wandered about two days without crossing a threshold： but twice in that space of time did I taste food； and it was when brought by hunger； exhaustion； and despair almost to the last gasp； that you； Mr。 Rivers； forbade me to perish of want at your door； and took me under the shelter of your roof。 I know all your sisters have done for me since—for I have not been insensible during my seeming torpor—and I owe to their spontaneous； genuine； genial passion as large a debt as to your evangelical charity。”
“Don’t make her talk any more now； St。 John；” said Diana； as I paused； “she is evidently not yet fit for excitement。 e to the sofa and sit down now； Miss Elliott。”
I gave an involuntary half start at hearing the alias： I had forgotten my new name。 Mr。 Rivers； whom nothing seemed to escape； noticed it at once。
“You said your name was Jane Elliott？” he observed。
“I did say so； and it is the name by which I think it expedient to be called at present； but it is not my real name； and when I hear it； it sounds strange to me。”
“Your real name you will not give？”
“No： I fear discovery above all things； and whatever disclosure would lead to it； I avoid。”
“You are quite right； I am sure；” said Diana。 “Now do； brother； let her be at peace a while。”
But when St。 John had mused a few moments he remenced as imperturbably and with as much acumen as ever。
“You would not like to be long dependent on our hospitality—you would wish； I see； to dispense as soon as may be with my sisters’ passion； and； above all； with my charity （I am quite sensible of the distinction drawn； nor do I resent it—it is just）： you desire to be independent of us？”
“I do： I have already said so。 Show me how to work； or how to seek work： that is all I now ask； then let me go； if it be but to the meanest cottage； but till then； allow me to stay here： I dread another essay of the horrors of homeless destitution。”
“Indeed you shall stay here；” said Diana； putting her white hand on my head。 “You shall；” repeated Mary； in the tone of undemonstrative sincerity which seemed natural to her。
“My sisters； you see； have a pleasure in keeping you；” said Mr。 St。 John； “as they would have a pleasure in keeping and cherishing a half…frozen bird； some wintry wind might have driven through their casement。 I feel more inclination to put you in the way of keeping yourself； and shall endeavour to do so； but observe； my sphere is narrow。 I am but the incumbent of a poor country parish： my aid must be of the humblest sort。 And if you are inclined to despise the day of small things； seek some more efficient succour than such as I can offer。”
“She has already said that she is willing to do anything honest she can do；” answered Diana for me； “and you know； St。 John； she has no choice of helpers： she is forced to put up with such crusty people as you。”
“I will be a dressmaker； I will be a plain…workwoman； I will be a servant； a nurse…girl； if I can be no better；” I answered。
“Right；” said Mr。 St。 John； quite coolly。 “If such is your spirit； I promise to aid you； in my own time and way。”
He now resumed the book with which he had been occupied before tea。 I soon withdrew； for I had talked as much； and sat up as long； as my present strength would permit。
Chapter 30
The more I knew of the inmates of Moor House； the better I liked them。 In a few days I had so far recovered my health that I could sit up all day； and walk out sometimes。 I could join with Diana and Mary in all their occupations； converse with them as much as they wished； and aid them when and where they would allow me。 There was a reviving pleasure in this intercourse； of a kind now tasted by me for the first time…the pleasure arising from perfect congeniality of tastes； sentiments； and principles。
I liked to read what they liked to read： what they enjoyed； delighted me； what they approved； I reverenced。 They loved their sequestered home。 I； too； in the grey； small； antique structure； with its low roof； its latticed casements； its mouldering walls； its avenue of aged firs—all grown aslant under the stress of mountain winds； its garden； dark with yew and holly—and where no flowers but of the hardiest species would bloom—found a charm both potent and permanent。 They clung to the purple moors behind and around their dwelling—to the hollow vale into which the pebbly bridle…path leading from their gate descended； and which wound between fern… banks first； and then amongst a few of the wildest little pasture… fields that ever bordered a wilderness of heath； or gave sustenance to a flock of grey moorland sheep； with their little mossy…faced lambs：… they clung to this scene； I say； with a perfect enthusiasm of attachment。 I could prehend the feeling； and share both its strength and truth。 I saw the fascination of the locality。 I felt the consecration of its loneliness： my eye feasted on the outline of swell and sweep—on the wild colouring municated to ridge and dell by moss； by heath…bell； by flower…sprinkled turf； by brilliant bracken； and mellow granite crag。 These details were just to me what they were to them—so many pure and sweet sources of pleasure。 The strong blast and the soft breeze； the rough and the halcyon day； the hours of sunrise and sunset； the moonlight and the clouded night； developed for me； in these regions； the same attraction as for them—wound round my faculties the same spell that entranced theirs。
Indoors we agreed equally well。 They were both more acplished and better read than I was； but with eagerness I followed in the path of knowledge they had trodden before me。 I devoured the books they lent me： then it was full satisfaction to discuss with them in the evening what I had perused during the day。 Thought fitted thought； opinion met opinion： we coincided； in short； perfectly。
If in our trio there was a superior and a leader； it was Diana。 Physically； she far excelled me： she was handsome； she was vigorous。 In her animal spirits there was an affluence of life and certainty of flow； such as excited my wonder； while it baffled my prehension。 I could talk a while when the evening menced； but the first gush of vivacity and fluency gone； I was fain to sit on a stool at Diana’s feet； to rest my head on her knee； and listen alternately to her and Mary； while they sounded thoroughly the topic on whic